Thursday, April 21, 2005
Things are so strained right now, its like there's not even a slightest bit of conversation between us.. We dont talk, much less sms each other anymore.. It's like being ignored.. I gez he doesnt care anymore.. That's what he told me.. From now onwards, i shouldnt care about you anymore.. ill juz lan lan.. Do what you want, continue to hang out with guys.. yada yadaz..
Almost cried a river this evening.. I dont like your personality and character.. In fact, i hate it.. Then who is he actually loving? That "thing" that has possessed me? Even i am unaware about that.. Why bother telling me he loves me when he hates all that i am? I always keep my cool.. Im gentle, and i dont juz jump to conclusions and all.. Why do i always hear negatives, vulgarities, filling my ears with loud hurtful words and i cant even defend myself.. I want to keep this thing going, keep it healthy.. But i cant do it alone..
Where were you when i needed you today?
9:47 PM